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My wishes and dreams post COVID-19 | A little heart to heart #15

Hey there my lovelies,

Welcome back to my Blog!

I do not about you guys but I have been dreaming and thinking about these days for a while now. My mind is on a constant rotation of questions … Where will I be in six months, a year from now? How will things be? Will everything go back to the way it was – whatever that was?

I find myself lying awake at night wondering what the future holds for me and my loved ones. My friends and relatives and those who I do not know but are vulnerable. I wonder what will happen to my job, even though I’m luckier than many: I still have a job, paid leave, paid sick leave, and can work remotely on occasions. Here in Malta, I have self-employed friends who are staring down the barrel of months without pay, friends who have already lost jobs. Rona is hitting the economy badly on a daily basis and has left us with som many unanswered questions!

In my mind, there are a number of possible futures, all dependent on how governments and society respond to Rona and its economic aftermath. Hopefully, we will use this crisis to rebuild, produce something better and more humane. But there is also the possibility that we may slide into something worse! I have to admit that all of it shares me especially since my future consists of a move and a starting from scratch!

There has been an enormous amount of speculation online about what the future will look like and honestly we are all just looking at how we can organize ourselves for the foreseeable future, whatever that future looks like. That perhaps has been the most difficult part – learning how to accept that we have little or no control at this moment except how we adapt our individual actions. We all know this is meant to be a “rolling out” phase where restrictions are lifted at a gradual pace but at least now, as of last Friday, we actually have some kind of clarity!

You might be disappointed about the lack of dramatic changes that perhaps some people expect but let’s be honest here – this has to be an extremely difficult time for any government to navigate. This reopening was always going to be a difficult road. Things cannot instantaneously “snap back to normal” as much as I wish they would and I have to wonder how being overly critical about every single decision is going to help anything or anyone. I certainly don’t envy any world leader at this time.

Now that shops are open and they have been for the past 5 days I have to admit that I have not gone to any for my own personal shopping. I do not feel comfortable with all of it and I much rather stay home and keep ordering online since the majority of the brands have opted to keep the website active. This is my personal decision and since Rona is still amongst us I much rather not risk it.

On the other hand, I am dreaming of the day when we are fully clear of the Rona and we can be humanly interactive and we can enjoy each other’s company. I want to visit my favorite capital city again. I want to enjoy the voices in the streets, I want to the option not to wear a mask but mostly I want to be able to walk alongside strangers without fear and without having to cross on the other side of the sidewalk!

I want to sit down in a coffee shop and enjoy being surrounded by friends and strangers and not a have a care in the world! I want to go and see my hairdresser and my nail tech and have a chat with them without having to keep my 2 metres distance and I want to be able to hug my mum and dad, my sister and my nephew.

I want to travel to our sister island Gozo and get lost in its picturesque streets and I want to be able to not feel guilty if I brush up against someone in crowded places.

I want normality back – what are your wishes and dreams?

Until next time,


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